Sorry for the radio silence. I have been thinking deeply about this blog, and where I want to take it and what I want to say. Perhaps that is something that could have been done here, in this space. =\ Thanks for hanging in.
As I was posting last semester I began to realize that by habitually omitting reference to large parts of my experience from my posts, I was truncating a large portion of my graduate school life. While nothing earth-shattering in the grand scheme of things, it has lead to shifts in my experiences, shifts that I have been hesitant talking about because it has some potential, and potentially unknown, consequences to do so.
But it's become really, really important to me to talk about being a graduate student at Suffolk - who has Attention-Deficit Disorder.
I was tasked to tell the naked truth about my graduate school experience at Suffolk. I am enthusiastic about the school and the program but because I was too timid to mention anything about my ADD, so much of what I was going through I self-censored to the point of inanity.
Then I realized doing so was self-defeating. I'm not exactly shy about it in real life, why would I be so on my blog? Seems dumb, even to me.
I really do enjoy sharing thoughts about my professors, my assignments, directions I'm heading in professionally, and ways graduate school is filling my head with all sorts of cool ideas; now you'll also hear about my frustrations with organization, exact ways in which "time management" is a pipe dream, and basically what it's like to have executive functions that can randomly go off-line every now and again.
It's not all-consuming, nor is it going to be All ADD All the Time, but it's a better story when it's the entire story. And at the risk of sounding really "rah-rah Suffolk", it is an incredibly supportive environment for an adult ADDer. Which makes writing about it here that much easier.
So. I'll be updating weekly again. For now, though, I have to finish a paper. (yes, at 11pm on a Sunday. Hush.)
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